Envy

Envy can disguise itself as anger, motivation, frustration or entitlement, just to name a few. All of the disguises are to help us justify our envy. Envy is a sin. And a part of my old nature. My envy has been disguised as anger. I didn't realize I was an envious person. But I am. I am a green-eyed monster. I felt motivated by my anger to act out accordingly. I felt entitled to be angry. And the envy motivated my anger.

I didn't realize being released of the envy would be so difficult. I have confessed my envy. And I bless the object of my envy continuously, but my anger continues to motivate me to be envious. I know this all seems a little vague. But my point is Envy is a sin. And will keep you from growing in your relationship with God.

Hopefully, I will overcome it soon and have more insight. Until then, I encourage you to read James, chapters 3 and 4. It's good stuff.